How my Great God delivered me once more…
Today God’s endless mercy, love, forgiveness and goodness touched my heart so deeply! I am so amazed!
About an hour ago I was reading a devotional called “Devotions for Lent from Holy Bible: Mosaic”, and there I found words reminding me of Isaiah 6:
"Woe is me! I’m an unclean person among unclean people. Now that I really see You, Lord, I see myself. Help!"
I said these words out loud, asking God to cleanse me in some way. Why did I ask for this? Well, let’s go back in time a bit…
For a couple of days before this unforgettable day I had been struggling. My faith was shaken! So hard that I was about to lose the fight…Satan was misleading me more and more…I tried to overcome him, but with every second it seemed more and more impossible…I started to lose my hope…I was really frightened!..Especially during the last evening…So before going to bed I cried out to the Lord for help. I was crying, repeating words like, “deliver me” or “I am lost! I need You!”. Standing on my knees, I was calling upon His Name…And then, when there were no tears left, I felt a little bit better…I laid in my bed, turned my headphones on, and immediately Kari Jobe’s songs “Here”, “Be Still My Soul (In You I Rest)” and “The Cross Is My Confession” appeared. While I was listening to them, I felt complete peace…I repeated the words from one of these songs
"For I believe in God the Father,
And in His Son, there is no other…
The Cross is my confession”
and fell asleep…
On the next day (the day of my deliverance) all this happen…I woke up with feeling of a healed heart, however, I still had such a creepy feeling of something evil…Then I (as always) started to read my devotionals and came across the one I’ve told about already.
By the way, since early morning the sky was kind of porcellaneous. The sun could be seen, but unclearly; it seemed like there were no clouds, but there was haze for sure…There was something misterious in this picture…Anyway, let’s come back to the moment when I was speaking the words about my unclean nature to God. By this time, the sun had been nearly closed by some clouds, and suddenly I heard the sound of rain! I came to the window, and the desire to touch the rain drops appeared in my mind…I opened the window, reached out my right hand and felt this peaceful and renewing (!) freshness of spring rain…I thought about the words I had said recently, looked to the sky…and realized what it was…the answered prayer! The answered cry!
I closed the window and touched my left hand and face with the cleansed right hand…And I felt so refreshed and renewed! My soul was singing! Thanking God for this, I saw that the rain had stopped and the sun was shining brightly! Immediately, the though of taking my guitar and singing a song of praise to the Lord came in my mind. I remembered the words
"Holy, Holy, Holy is the Lord…"
from Isaiah 6:3 and Revelation 4:8, which I always associate with Kari Jobe’s “Revelation Song”. I found the chords for it and started playing…God’s grace fell upon me…I was (and am still) so satisfied and happy!
O, Lord! I promise I will praise Your Holy Name forever! I will sing along with Your angels:
"Holy, Holy, Holy is the Lord God Almighty,
Who is and is and is to come!”
Thank You for rescuing us and for never giving up on us! Thank You! Be praised and glorified forever! We adore You, Lord!
In Jesus’ Name,
P.S.: I will remember this day always!